custodian
noun
a person who has responsibility for taking care of or protecting something.
trapped in a state of delirium,
every time i stir in my sleep it means i’ve just had a nightmare,
one that i’m fully aware is just a dream, but cannot seem to control my thoughts and movements,
the subtle sigh of relief when the sun comes up is not lost on me,
neither is the trance-like state my brain puts my body in,
when sleep paralysis often knocks on the door of my brain, my neurons swiftly welcome it,
as if to say, “come in quickly, we have been waiting for you,”
my eye twitches immediately if not sooner,
and my body lies motionless,
how great a custodian i am, (not) able to control my mind in most ways,
fleeing from my daydreams, running from my thoughts…
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